Home again

I'm back home from Houston, just me and the kids. I don't expect to have any visitors or appointments today, so I can relax and enjoy my little ones.

I've always thought of Jake and Dana as "my kids" instead of "our kids" since Dave is not their biological father. He's involved in their lives but more as a provider and sometime caregiver than a real father. He seems to be okay with it, but I really don't care all that much. If he were to walk out on me tomorrow, I would be just fine. I've been stashing all my money away for the day I know is coming, and my business is turning into a real cash cow. So I don't need Dave, but he is convenient to have around.

I've wondered if I want Dave around for now so I don't have to think about letting anyone else into my life on a full time basis. Not that I have much of a choice in the matter. It's pretty obvious that Shawn is not interested in being with me - I see less of him now than ever. But as long as he's in my life, every other black man in town will respect his rights to me. They will fuck me, but they won't try to take me away from Shawn. He has said that he will never let me go. I'm not sure if he really means it, but he is quite adamant.

Just last year, a guy named Bill moved to town. Bill was very attractive mulatto, a little shorter than I prefer, but very well hung. Shawn had invited him to a slut-party and Bill fucked me in the living room in front of everyone. He led me upstairs and he fucked me in the ass in the master bedroom. Later that night he fucked me while I sucked another guy in the game room. There were a couple of other white girls at the party, but Bill was quite enamored with me alone. Every time I looked up, there was Bill, smiling, with his cock hard, ready to go again. He called me the next day and I met him at his new house and he fucked me in the ass again. He fucked my ass almost every day for a month. I'm not opposed to ass-fucking, but as I mentioned, he was long and thick. Then Bill said he was going to see Shawn about coming to a more permanent long-term arrangement. I don't know what was said, and Shawn didn't mention the conversation, but I never saw Bill again.

So for now, I don't see any prospects for a change in my situation. Fine by me.